My Dull Holiday Plan

almost three weeks of holiday a.k.a my shortcourse college,
i feel quiet bored with all my routines there`s plenty stuff to do
since this holiday thingy begun, i did some stuff wit my girls--my guy also,but mostly nothing new about,
such as ;

1. Walked interview about part-time job in this LIRA corporate -which is until now i havent heard about the contract or whatsoever,i really looking forward about this job, it costs 250.000 rupiahs per day! Can you imagine how many things i can spend with those if i work there,lets say 3 weeks!

2. Feed my appetite of Sushi last week,at my fave Sushi Tei, celebrated Chira`s recovery from Demam Berdarah disease--oh geez she`s getting even more chubby !! - well,its been so long sinceour last gathering at J.Co,you guys way too much activities,Otong with her MB,Santri with her-not-going-anywhere-its-holiday-baby! and Chira with her disease,what a pitty!

3.Went to Bandung with Adhi last week, such a long long weekend, attending Patty`s wedding,his-so-called-bestfriend,
I went nowhere,but i just get bonding wit his former college mates, although they`re quiet mature to me, i still feel they`re so welcome,thanks for Dewi for letting me stayed at hers ;)

well, what next?
have loads of plans but dunno how and when to do it

1.Watch Superman Returns,with RTC Collegues this Monday
2.Spending Spree at ITC Kuningan with my Otong,Chira,Santri--yea ladies,keep your eyes open,theres so many cute stuff hanging around,hehe
3.Going to PRJ, see the fireworks or anything such as bazaar--again,shop!-- with anyone!
4.Watch Goodnight Electric at Liquid room with my girls,Udin,Rara,Meta,and hopefully Atta could come, since Chibol still having her bedrest,she will just stay at home.

Such a consumtive holiday,huh?
Nothing but spending money or make my self getting even more fat,haha--im sorry Dr.Rossana for your naughty patient ;)

Ladies, its our habit that we always SHOP!
I warn you, ZARA is now end of season sale,up to 50% !!
Geez, i cant wait to buy those cute strippy shirt,and hunting another tops and jeans on ITC!

Im not saying that spending my time with all of you are dull,boring or what,but its about the feedback to me,eventhough im getting closer wit all of you and bonding s together,
i found it no challenge, although i want to do skydiving --if its so,CHALLENGE!
i need more to spicy up my life,well if somebody has some of it,share with me please?

satu purnama

siapa yang salah saat senang membuai ke atas, atas lagi, sampai mentok

bukan saya salah melambung tinggi, tinggi sekali

pasti tidak dia yang membuat saya beterbangan melayang-layang

anehnya, tanah dan bumi berjarak seribu juta kilometer kubik

burung saja tak bisa menjangkau

pesawat mustahil menggapai

apalagi saya melonjak saya tidak sampai

terlalu jauh pasti awan menyentuh bumi air dihisap tanah

arang-arang tebal berdebu

sekali tiup

fiuh! arangnya hilang bersama debu

mungkin menguap membuai ke atas

bisa jadi melambung tinggi, tinggi sekali

atau juga beterbangan melayang-layang

ternyata ozon mulai bocor racunnya diserap kemana saja apa saja kapan saja

tak peduli siapa saja apa saja kapan saja

bisa saja balon udara gas heliumnya meracuni oksigen

jadi penuh CO2

kalau belum sempat dijahit lagi coba ikat dulu, biar udara tak kemana

bebas dihirup,

sehat lagi

one day on March 2006.

Mad Woman on her PMS =P

c o m a

I am a dot

I` m circled by hundred of lines they are just like maze for me

most of them are straight and possible if some of them are curvy

I am a dot

I can roll away also can united some lines.

lines will missed me somehow I can separated them from each others

I am a dot

I can ruined something or anything or everything

I am rolling groaning but suddenly I got stuck so I moan

I got stuck in extremely frizz maze

I can do nothing maze trapped me maze stab me I tried to get out of maze but turns out it torturing me into center

I am a dot

No more lines missed me I sucked into maze I cannot even move

I am an idiot

someday around April,2006 definetely Jakarta

almost everyone turns into an idiot somehow

colorless portrait of life

menurut kamu dunia ini warnanya apa yah?

banyak yang bilang dunia ini indah,berwarnawarni,berpelangi
rasanya selalu cerahceria dan bersinar terus,
err,kinda cheesy isn`t it?

coba,warna apa lagi yang akan muncul ketika seseorang dihadapkan oleh sebuah kata bernama 'dunia' ?
bisa jadi yang terlontar dari mulutnya adalah kejam,kelam
berada apda gradasi pencipta warna abuaabu,
um,is it the true color of the world?

coba bandingkan warnawarna tersebut,
berwarna;berarti mengandung unsur merah,kuning,hijau,biru,pink,orange,
strawberry,pelangi,balon,permen,eskrim,awan,pisang
(geez,why its always have to be food?)
apa sih rasarasa warna itu? biasanya manis,enak,dingin,seru,etcetc

pencipta warna abuabu;hitam selalu bersama si putih,
langit mendung,gelap,hantu,malam,
biasanya halhal tersebut nggak enak,ketakutan,sepi,aneh

BIASANYA
BIASANYA
biasanya yah?

bagaimana jika tidak biasa?
tidak terbiasa,
atau tidak dibiasakan?

coba kalau,
balon;merah,BIASANYA senang diberi balon,gembira,tertawa
tapi,
kalau balon pecah,meledak,terluka,berdarah
merah
merah jadi tidak senang, gembira,tertawa
jadi tidak biasa kalau merah senang

lalu kalau,
malam;hitam,BIASANYA takut kalau malam datang,gelisah,sepi
tapi,
kalau malam berbintang,lihat lampukota,banyak kembangapi
hitam
hitam jadi ramai,seru,tertawa
jadi tidak biasa kalau hitam takut

coba saja,kalau hidup di kegelapan
mungkin kita takut,seram,kesepian
ingin keluar,ingin lari,ingin teriak
tapi saat kita temukan lilin yang terang bersinar
mungkin kita senang,takjub,tenang
bisa senyum,bisa nyaman,bisa tentram

kalau semuanya sudah biasa,kita sulit untuk menjadi yang luarbiasa
kalau biasa saja semuanya rasanya hambar tidak terasa manis,pahit,gurih

kalau mau yang biasa,mungkin kebanyakan rasa yang enak justru sesuatu yang tidak biasa namun juga tidak begitu luar biasa,

mungkin bisa jadi binasa


jakarta,27 Juni 2006

biasanya malemmalem bgini apa yang binasa yah?

remote by mood

circumstance talks!

i was in a very bad mood this morning,
usually i talk hard,i speak sarcastic
smile hard, everything i do would just turn off people mood
well, mr djokokentjono saved me!

i went to sub bagian akademik when i heard that ip udah keluar,degdegan banget
at first i`d rather see it later,but sooner or later its just about the time
when i was queueing on the line,still with degdegan feeling
my mind still wondering how if i failed on that subject?
ergh,that would ruin all my plan about taking next semester`s subject if i still failed on that
but, like i said
mr djokokentjono saved me,

i got B on my Fonologi Indonesia
yiay,still cant believe it, honestly if i just get B- im still happy about it
well Good God still love me,well i can relieve now
no more sarcastic word, i smile a lot, i talkative and mostly pleasantful

basically,it turns my day just because one moment only,
it just like clicking on your fingertips,

im the one who depends on mood
i talk and act as my mood says
some what it can annoyed others around me, but believe me mostly it happen when peoples are in their low mood,and sudden they cheered by something unexpected they become happier than ever!
people expect something small,and then they get much bigger,it helps a lot

i can prove it cuz i am now,

and how if we prove it,just do something small but pleasant
well, i guess those people will be happier better than i am now ;)

shortcut

coba lihat ke depan.
apa saja yang terlihat?
kau lihat jalan kah?
pohon kah?
ranting?

buka lagi,lihat lebih ke depan,
masih bisa lihat apa?
mungkin kau lihat langit kah?
lihat awan kah?
burung terbang?

masih sanggup melihat yang lebih lagi?
matamu masih sehat `kan ?
kau bisa lihat apa?
puncak semeru kah?
bulan yang konon berlubang,terlihatkah?
atau mungkin pijar panas semburan matahari?
entah lah,

mungkin hanya mutiara besar di depan yang tak sengaja tersandung oleh mu,,


hanya sejauh itu saja kah?

my mint choco-chip and your rum-raisin icecream

kenapa yah manusia harus merasa sama dulu supaya bisa empati?

mungkin setelah gue ngeliat contohcontoh yang ada di sekeliling gue,lets say kalo kita lagi ada di situasi yang sama bareng mostly when we broke kita lebih bisa ngerasaain bonding-nya sama tementemen kita itu?

pengalaman trakhir gue waktu gue lagi berkunjung ke salahsatu kos-an temen gue di luar kota,
entah kenapa gue iri banget! mereka satu angkatan akrab banget dan seolah engga ada batasan yang bikin mereka saling nutupin keadaan satu samalain dan yang terpenting they feel free to talk
dan curhat pastinya hehe ;)

setelah gue perhatiin lagi ternyata temen gue tersebut emang udah lama barengan, about four years or more,terus mereka emang ratarata anak rantau,

swear to God,as a second semester uni student,i still cant feel the special bonding between me and others,if its so, more to peoples who has things in common, for others who hasn`t , i struggle more,entahlah gue yang kurang bisa ngebaur atau waktunya aja yang belum tepat, well i know less than you are,

mungkin orang akan merasa lebih bisa menyatu ketika ada suatu "rasa" yang sama yang bisa menyatukan mereka,perasaan yang didapet ketika mereka ada di suatu suasana,tapi bukankah sesuatu yang beda rasanya bisa lebih menarik dibagi?

just like an icecream-which is had loads of flavors-how does it feel when you can taste my mint chocochip icecream while you having your own rumraisin icecream?